We are on different planets. They will not find me.
And I imagine they may well be derailed by facing a dragon, were they on the same planet. SOLDIER is taught thoroughly what to do about monsters.
[It had been important to him to believe that bright ending was waiting for him. And now having to rely on some sad, minuscule hope that two specific people might just happen to appear on a completely different planet, and events still unfold the same way..
Sephiroth didn't dare allow himself many dreams. It's too unpleasant when he's forced by reality to give them up. What once had been incomprehensibly strange but at least a positive to anticipate was now so much ash.
He'll pull himself together. He always has. It's just a lot of disappointment piling up.]
In light of the differences between us, any further questions I may have asked are irrelevant. A sibling still, but we are not the same. I would have preferred it if we were.
I didn't remain in the simulation forever. It is entirely possible we won't be here forever, either. Likewise, there is no reason to think that, if you return home, the dragon - and the changes it's wrought on you - will go with you. There are many possibilities still for you to meet your own Angeal and Genesis, whether or not it happens exactly as it did for me.
But...I'm sorry if believing we were the same gave you comfort that you no longer have. I believed it as well. But the thought gave me more dread than happiness. I've endured much that I would never wish you to go through, and the thought that you might be inescapably doomed to suffer the same events I have was deeply distressing. That there is possibility for deviance between our timelines gives me hope I didn't have before.
Still, I would rather it not have come at the expense of something that comforted you.
I must wonder truly at what differences there are in our lives and upbringing that you might seriously suggest I base my plans for the future on nothing but wishful thinking.
But it is good that it has brought you some level of ease for your worries. And that I finally have an explanation for why our scales are a different color!
I will be fine. I apologize for troubling you so needlessly over such petty things.
I expect you wish to withdraw to be alone to deal with your pain. May I suggest you not do so, and accept company instead? We don't need to talk if you don't wish to.
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Date: 2024-12-05 01:56 am (UTC)And I imagine they may well be derailed by facing a dragon, were they on the same planet. SOLDIER is taught thoroughly what to do about monsters.
[It had been important to him to believe that bright ending was waiting for him. And now having to rely on some sad, minuscule hope that two specific people might just happen to appear on a completely different planet, and events still unfold the same way..
Sephiroth didn't dare allow himself many dreams. It's too unpleasant when he's forced by reality to give them up. What once had been incomprehensibly strange but at least a positive to anticipate was now so much ash.
He'll pull himself together. He always has. It's just a lot of disappointment piling up.]
In light of the differences between us, any further questions I may have asked are irrelevant. A sibling still, but we are not the same. I would have preferred it if we were.
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Date: 2024-12-05 02:01 am (UTC)But...I'm sorry if believing we were the same gave you comfort that you no longer have. I believed it as well. But the thought gave me more dread than happiness. I've endured much that I would never wish you to go through, and the thought that you might be inescapably doomed to suffer the same events I have was deeply distressing. That there is possibility for deviance between our timelines gives me hope I didn't have before.
Still, I would rather it not have come at the expense of something that comforted you.
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Date: 2024-12-05 02:12 am (UTC)But it is good that it has brought you some level of ease for your worries. And that I finally have an explanation for why our scales are a different color!
I will be fine. I apologize for troubling you so needlessly over such petty things.
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Date: 2024-12-05 02:14 am (UTC)I expect you wish to withdraw to be alone to deal with your pain. May I suggest you not do so, and accept company instead? We don't need to talk if you don't wish to.
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Date: 2024-12-05 02:31 am (UTC)I believe I have embarrassed myself enough for one day. But thank you for the offer.
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Date: 2024-12-05 02:34 am (UTC)